trust.

Maybe trust just needs to be my permanent post title for a while.  Seems that its where my heart is hanging out and hanging up lately!

I am learning some things about myself:

1. I do not trust nearly as well as I thought I did.  I mean, I did move 7 times in recent years to follow God's lead ... thought maybe that meant I got trust.  I don't.  Not really.

2. I am a control freak.  I think I already knew this.

3. My view of God is much too small!

4. I want to believe that trust and sight co-exist.

5. The older I get the more I desire clarity and the more I tend to fear.

"Craving clarity, we attempt to eliminate the risk of trusting God."

-brennan manning

And I am remembering some things about God:

1. He is NEVER unfaithful.

2. He sees the box top while I see the pieces.

3. He could NOT love me more.  And He does not love me less.

4. His ways are not my ways.

5. He is trustworthy.  Always.