No fair.

No doubt about it! God is good—
    good to good people, good to the good-hearted.
But I nearly missed it,
    missed seeing his goodness.
I was looking the other way,
    looking up to the people
At the top,
    envying the wicked who have it made,
Who have nothing to worry about,
    not a care in the whole wide world.  (Psalm 73:1-5)

Ever feel this way???  I wish I could say I don't ... but seriously, I've been so frustrated the past couple of weeks that it just seems like those people who do the wrong thing are always the ones who "win" ... and sometimes it seems like doing the "right" thing never matters.

I know that's not true.  I guess it's that ongoing struggle with wanting things to be "fair" ... that everyone does their job.  Lunch Duty!!  Seriously!!!  I would just like to get 30 minutes to eat my lunch.  Is that really too much of a professional privilege??!!!  Ok.  Rant over!

And of course, really, that means I want things to be fair, unless I am the one who's getting the privilege or the special treatment. :-)

But you know, as much as I want life to be fair and people to do the right thing, just because it's the right thing, it's not always going to happen.  I can't fix that.  I can't change that.

So, I can be frustrated.  Or I can change me.

That's why these verses hit me this week when I read them ... because when I am focused on those around me and what they are/are not doing, I miss God.  I miss His goodness.  I am only seeing what I don't have, what I wish I had, or what others have ... instead of counting God's goodness to me.

Life is not fair.  But when I look at what God has done for ME, I see all of His grace and all of His blessing toward me.  I don't seem to be so lacking.  I don't seem to worry so much about what is "fair" ... because it's only by His grace that I have received His gifts.

God, help me to look up first.