Expectations kill relationships - especially with God. And that's what a child doesn't have: this whole edifice of expectation. Without expectations, what can topple the surprising wonder of the moment? - av
I was just talking with a friend about her ability to keep expectation low in a certain relationship of hers. Kind of stinks ... but it helps with the disappointment. It's really not the person or the circumstances so much that disappoint us ... it's those pesky little expectations. And man is it hard not to hope and dream and wish and expect. Even with God.
In the midst of some major frustration yesterday in some circumstances that I am powerless to change, but have endured for far too long, I was ranting to God on my way home ... knowing that the person was not going to change ... nor was their work ethic going to meet my expectations. I have held out hope that they might rise to the occasion too many times just to be disappointed. And coming to the end of my rant realized that my only choice was to expect (there it is again) GOD to change me.
To take me frustration and my bitterness and my anger and my disappointment and to give me a heart that practices thankfulness and in that finds the grace for change. That God would allow me to live as a child in that situation, free from expectation ... able to marvel in the wonders in front of me rather than to wallow in the anger inside of me.
And I am thankful ...
91. fingerpaint
92. bubbles
93. warm showers after good workouts
94. cupcakes with chocolate chips
95. surprises ... good surprises
96. cooking for friends
97. coffee dates
98. looking forward to something really good
99. Disneyworld
100. Christmas lights at night
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