"He knows ..."

",,, its scary to be us."

The Israelites were recounting the Kings they defeated ... for THREE chapters this morning.  I'm SURE there is value in that.  But I can't say that I was understanding much more than the HUGENESS of our God and His plan.

This afternoon I had a little time with a fire and another book I'm reading ... Beth Moore's new book, So Long Insecurity.  If I ever wondered if I SHOULD read it, I suppose my mortification that the checker at Barnes and Noble had to ring up a book for me on insecurity probably just sealed that!  I had a similar panic attack when I checked out Do You Think I'm Beautiful.  Maybe I should use amazon more!  :0)  HA!

So far the book is good.  Very reassuring to know we're not alone in our insecurities ... as if we ever really had to look very far for the answer to THAT question??!!  But buried in the midst of a chapter is the one line that MOST resonated in my heart today ...

"He KNOWS its scary to be us."

So simple.  Yet so profound.  I woke up this morning with several "what ifs" running through my head ... seemed daunting at the time ... tonight I hardly even remember what the "worries" were, but I find great comfort in knowing that the God of the universe knows us and understands us and even asknowledges that its not easy to be us!  Maybe that's what made this most resonate in my heart ... do you ever feel like God is a little like having a general for a Dad?  You know, you've seen the stereotype ... the kind who wishes you would just buck up and get over it, who thinks that if you just trusted him (or obeyed him) enough that you'd have nary a worry .... that YOU make it hard?   He loves you, but He's not afraid of ANYTHING so you shouldn't be either!

BUT, that's NOT Him.  He knows we live with heartache.  He knows we experience fear and disappointment and hurt.  He knows we live in a hard world and that things touch our lives that break His heart as well as ours.  He knows.

And He wants US to to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love He has for us.  His love covers how scary it is to be US!  And that's pretty amazing!

And I got exactly what I asked for ... ONE snow day ... one gorgeous, beautiful snow that ended in sunshine and clear roads today!  :0)