There are days when I thought there were going to be major changes happening in my life ... and I got really excited. And then they didn't.
There were things I thought I might attain. or be given. and then I didn't.
There were things I thought would NEVER get better. and they have. in amazing, supernatural, God-sized ways and I am thankful.
I know, this is darn vague. But it's where I've been this semester ... up and down on a rollercoaster of expectations.
Today I found out that someone got a job that I thought I might have been interested in. I knew someone else was going to get it. I am super excited and happy for the person who got it ... but still, there is some lingering, but what if it was me ...
Isn't that a hard thing, the but what if it was me ... feeling. But what if it was ME that had that new car ... or new house. But what if it was ME who went on that awesome vacation or had that day off ... But what if it was me that had that awesome marriage of new baby. But what if it was me that was a size 2 or had that great hair ...
It's subtle, but we do it, somedays more than others. Because we often wish for something we don't have, thinking it will change what we have. Know what, it probably won't. But we forget that. Oh that we would find contentment and joy where God has us today instead of wishing for something else.
Because of the life I have, today I am thankful for:
366. celebrating the birthday of one of my seniors with her over lunch and good conversation ... and knowing I've played a part in who she is and in what she is becoming ...
367. the great response to the new structure reveal last night
368. an amazing group of seniors that I am gonna miss soooooo much
369. a conversation with a friend who shares my place in life right now
370. a rainstorm that stopped long enough for me to run errands today
371.a Mexico bag that looks sooooo fun! Love packing medical stuff! And yes, those are big teeth! :-)
373. the girls who were giggling in my office over GiGi's cupcakes
374. a job I love ... even when it's hard
375. the privilege of sharing Christ with the world ...
Not getting what you want
can make you feel sick,
but a wish that comes true
is a life-giving tree.
Proverbs 13:12
I am thankful that God doesn't always give me what I want ... and am holding on to His promises for those longings fulfilled that are a life-giving tree.
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