Hard Stuff

So, I've come to the conclusion that I am a wuss.  I do NOT like to do HARD stuff!

I started the Daniel fast Monday with some girls.  In some ways it was easier to start it at home ... I had the foods I needed, etc ... and coming off the diet coke wasn't nearly as bad as I thought.  BUT ... it was three days of being snowed in with NO comfort foods.  Today as I ran into the grocery store MOSTLY just to get out of this house and survey the roads around Winder ... I wanted everything I couldn't have.  And it made me glad for being able to usually have things like meat and diet coke in moderation.  Callie and Wells are coming over for the evening and I am making tortilla soup with beans for me ... and with beans AND chicken for her.  And I kinda just want to sit down with a big old diet coke and say, "all done.  it was a great 3 days."  Cause I don't like doing hard things.

One of the benefits of having a treadmill is that I've been able to work out this week with all of this time.  But again, running is hard.  Working out is hard.  And I don't really like to do hard things.  I will because I should, but if I could be healthy and skinny and run 10 minute miles when I wanted to (as if) ... then I would never run again.  Cause training is hard.

My ventures out into Winder showed me that traveled road are mostly ok.  Had to straddle the line a few times, but the sunshine today is helping LOTS ... even in the hour I was gone!  I felt pretty victorious in my outing and ready for a delayed opening tomorrow.  THEN I came home and I slid into my driveway.  YUP ... shoulda gotten out there yesterday when it was slushy and tried to shovel it.  But I didn't.  And now it is one big ice rink!  So, I unloaded my groceries and then grabbed a shovel and went back outside to work on said rink.  And I lasted less than 5 minutes.  I couldn't even crack it.  So, I dumped some rock salt on it ... cause that was easy.  And I backed in and out of my driveway several times (slip sliding all the way) cause that was easy ... and warm.  And I still have a skating rink because I hate hard stuff.

I hate getting up early because it's hard.
I hate having "hard" conversations ... like asking for stuff.
I hate fixing stuff and putting stuff together because it's hard ... and I had to do some of that this week.

I wish, I wish following God came with an "easy button" ... but it seldom does.  So, I will keep doing hard stuff and praying He is using it to make me more like him ... cause I don't like it.