more waiting ...

"I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD." Psalm 27:13-14

It's funny what a roller coaster of emotions I can have in a day ... empowered, excited, disheartened, weary.  Ok, who am I fooling?  I think that can be in an hour some days.

As I'm looking for God in my midst here in this season of Lent ... one of the things I am looking for is His provision.  If you asked me to pick the name of God that I most identified with, it would be Jehovah Jireh, my Provider.  He has been so faithful ... why would I even doubt.

Yesterday I had been putting off some things that fell on my "hard" list ... they really weren't, but it felt that way.  One of them was to contact the realtor I talked to three years ago and see about possibly listing my house this summer.  That was MY plan.  The market is rebounding, I owe less than I did three years ago.  I've had the same renters for two years ... time to cut the losses and move on.  I was so encouraged when she mentioned that she thinks of me when she sees her rocks! :-)  Meant to be, right?  Until the email that said, "I think you should rent a little longer."  Did I mention that my renters' check bounced this month?  Today, of all days????

How is that possibly God's plan or provision ... because, clearly, everything will do wrong ... despite the fact that it hasn't.  But, even as I typed my response to her, I knew, God was going to be teaching me, "I guess I will just have to trust God's timing in all of this ..."  I know that's true ... and I even realize that trusting His timing could gain me much in the process, rather than losing me much.  

I have already been given opportunities to pick up some extra salary - maybe teaching summer school, tutoring after school ... things, kind of like Hagar's well that have been there all along that I just had not opened my eyes to see.  

Today, was a gorgeous spring day ... I had a (fun??) run in the sunshine this afternoon ... and just a week after the latest icecapade ... there was this.

So, as the verses say ... I remain CONFIDENT that I will see the goodness of the Lord, in the land of the LIVING.  And I will be encouraged that He is working things far better than I even could.  If you want to pray with me that I will get the summer school gig, I'd appreciate it ... it seems almost too good to be true!